A Scorpion who've lost his sting

Mood: Gloom

Turning 29 is not a turning point in my life. It is, however the first time in many years that I celebrated my birthday with such festivities. I thank all my friends and colleagues who took the time out and celebrated my birthday with me, I really had a fantastic time.

November seems to be a month of birthdays. Joo, Alvin, Kerry, Caroline, Ben, Jennifer, Joe, Tracie, Windy, Yeacy, Sylvia......and the list goes on. The reason for this phenomenon, in my opinion, is that around February (Valentine's Day) of each year, couples tend to increase their pro-create-tivity (if there is ever such a word) due to the season of love and 9 months down the road they reap the fruits of their labour of love. Sweet huh? It is however an expensive month for those with many Scorpion friends. You burn a hole in your pocket buying gifts and dinners you wish you didn't have any friends.

Ever since the departure of my immediate supervisor, I've taken on most of his responsibilities, on top of my own. With the transfer of Akshay to another department and only Daphne to support, I've been stretched beyond what I thought I was capable of doing. To me, it seems like there are too many things going on at the same time that requires my attention, and my failure is sometimes being unable to prioritise things, and at times, trying to put everything as priority. I've been putting considerable stress on myself to deliver the resourcing brochure in time and of stellar quality. Although my boss is generally quite happy with the progress, I feel that there are so many things I could have done better. It sucks to be feeling this way.

My health, of late hasn't been fantastic either. Just last week during training, I felt like vomitting halfway and had to take a rest. The past few days my stomach has been feeling weak and hurts when I walk. With the race on Saturday, I feel physically unprepared for it and I feel really really disappointed with myself. I believe it is all stress related and I need to find a way to alleviate my stress quickly!

Like a Scorpion who've lost its sting, I feel like I've lost my worth. I hope to get my groove back soon.